Today was one of those days. Those days. Where there was just too much to do, nothing really got done, and my lunch date was a stack of papers. On top of that I had a meeting scheduled at 3pm. I know…a meeting on a Friday of a 3-day weekend. I must be crazy. The meeting lasted until 4:15pm and it wasn’t particularly productive, but it took a lot out of me. I couldn’t wait to get home, and of course as I pulled up to my driveway my neighbors were there hanging out. Any other day I’d gladly stay and chat, small talk, socialize…just not today. But of course, I’m a nice person, so I summoned up just enough energy to stir up some conversation for 10 minutes before I excused myself to go inside.
By the time I changed into comfortable clothes, grabbed a snack, and played with my daughter, I was done. Done for the day, done with talking, done with listening, done thinking. I needed to let go and just be. I craved silence.
Anyone that lives with a toddler knows that silence is practically non-existent when the little one is awake. So I did what any desperate mother would do – bust out the iPad. Unlimited screen time in exchange for a little bit of peace. And I didn’t feel guilty at all. The sound of silence was golden.
Today was a reminder that maybe I need to be more conscious of taking short time-outs during the day, especially when I’m having one of those days. I need to remember to take time to breathe and let go of all the extra noise. Time to let my thoughts catch up to me. Time to remember to be grateful for being alive.
Time to just be.