I am the queen of unfinished business. Currently in my office I have 2 scrapbook projects from the summer that sit open and unfinished. I have yet to send out the remainder of my daughter’s thank you cards from her birthday (last May). I have a super cute wooden key holder I bought from Michael’s that I need to paint and put up. I bought when our house was brand new…4 years ago. You don’t even want to see what piles of grading I need to get through that probably should have been done weeks ago. I become easily inspired by things I see other people doing, or projects on pinterest that I just have to steal. But after taking the first few steps to getting it done, life happens. And the task takes a back seat to whatever else that takes precedence at that moment. And it just sits there as I add it to my perpetual to-do list in my head that never seems to get any shorter.
The worst part is I have no idea how to fix this. I’ve tried project to-do lists, setting goals, reminders on my phone, computer, laptop, or leaving it out where I can see it. Nothing seems to help, at least not consistently, anyway. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, because this is a part of me that I want to change, to let go. At the very least, it’s something I want to improve on. So, I’ve thought a lot about why it is that I am like this and I came to the following conclusion.
I am a pack-rat. I am a perfectionist. I am a procrastinator. I collect waaaaay too much stuff and don’t purge enough. I don’t follow through with projects because if I don’t complete them perfectly, I will consider myself a failure. If I don’t pick just the right colors for the key-holder, it won’t match and I won’t be able to put it up. If have to write a sentimental, lengthy “thank you” to each of the wonderful people that came to my daughter’s 1st birthday or I might as well not sent them anything. If I don’t have the time to get through a stack of one, single assignment, I won’t start it. And worst of all, I procrastinate. On everything. Because, again, I need to do things perfectly. (And I’m also a little lazy…)
I really, really need to let go of wanting to and instead just get. it. done.
Participating in #31 things is going to help me get it done. By holding myself accountable to all my readers (all 5 of them…) I am hopeful that I will see this particular project through. Funny, I even overanalyzed and thought about this first post all last night and today, trying to plan out how to perfectly present my first post. I finally said screw it and just started writing. And as I finish this perfectly imperfect post, I feel confident that maybe this time, this time it’ll work. Day one. Done.